baldness...

apart from the fact that my hair was already thinning, additional stress had cause more balding to develop. no wonder people said that if a person is mentally unwell or depress he/she will have poor grooming/ hygiene. i am yet to the point of not showering and brushing my teeth but i had neglected on my grooming. i use any shampoo that i lay hands on, never wash my face with the cleanser but with body foam. no toner, no moisturer, etc.

finally my assignments are out in the deep pool of many other's assignments somewhere in Austraila waiting to be graded and to somewhat seal my fate. at least now i am more at ease. for the past weeks or so, i had been so tight up and stress that i was eating but never full, sleeping but never rested, living just for the pure sake of moving on with the hours and days. and yah... i pulled my hair... *sigh*...

my bio. online quizes were done so poorly that i refrain from discussing it and sharing my online quize records cuz i am so ashame of my bad result. DAMN! then... it came to a point, i psyco myself to believe that somehow if we pass and submit the needful we will all get credit and be able move on. no need to aim too high and kill myself. get the deg and life goes on. honestly even if i am a merit student will it make much of a different for me?? i guess YES but the problem is... i don't think i can be that... the most a A or B student. someone once said... "so what if u r the second in place? u r still a loser. the winner is and will only be 1" so... strictly speaking i am just adopting the "AH Q" spirit and be willing to be 1 of those many faceless individual among the crowd. i think i seriously need a msw/ psy ref now. haha... =(